I was wondering if I should just give up entirely.
Everyone feels that we should/are going to get back together but that can't happen unless both parties want it, right? He told my cousin that he still loves me.
All that does is upset me.
Because he didn't say he's IN love with me. Because he's not.
But I'm IN love with him. So my feelings aren't returned.
Yet again.
I was told to not think of it as me not being good enough...
But this isn't the 1st time someone I was with has had such strong feelings for someone else and  we end up having to break up because of it.
He said "I choose her."
He'll never know the scar that left.
And all while I decided to actually do something about my self esteem.
June makes the 3 months.
He broke up with me 3 months ago.
You know, before him I had a period of 2-month relationships.
I tried 4 times.
Each time lasted 2 months...
And then there was him.
We started to 'date' in April last year...
The 10th of April 2012.
First time he kissed me.
Then in August we officially became a couple.
That was the 29th.
So it had been 11 months since he 1st kissed me but 6 months since we'd been together.
It lasted that long, see?
I was finally willing to stay with someone.
Because it was so good I was scared of losing him
All the time I was so afraid.
I was afraid I'd mess it up, somehow.
I guess, to be fair, I should say that he'd never actually said he's in love with me...
He only ever said I love you or some variation of that.
But I thought... Assumed.