Random Memory of Us

He randomly touched my butt lol

I think it was one of those 'I booped your bottom' moments

I must have reacted badly and I told him I usually don't like when ppl do that

So he felt all bad and stuff

And I told him I didn't have a problem with him doing it

It just always came as a surprise

But he still felt bad

So I insisted that it was ok until he felt better

And put his hands there and kept them there while we were walking

I would love to be able to say
"I haven't cried in months"
Because life is just that good
And I'm just that happy
And things rarely ever get to me
At the end of the day
I'm so unhappy
And I have no one to talk to about it
I have my really good friends
They tell me stuff
But I can't talk to them about how I really feel
I can't talk to anyone
I have no one
I wonder how much of my friends feel like this
I can give advice easy
Can't take it though
I genuinely hate my life
I go out and have a good time
But then I get home and sit in my room
And everything is bad again
And I just really want to fast forward to the part where I'm actually happy

Day 1?

I made the decision to cut him off yesterday
And then I gave him an ultimatum
So he's not going to try
All that does is make me feel like he's saying
I'm not worth the effort
Nice.